day 64

before everything else, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!! :) a day that is full of love and romance. but for some single people, it is SAD...single awareness day! haha. but we should always put in mind that valentine's day is a reminder that we should make our partner feel loved everyday of the year and not just on that special day.

Valentine's day for people in long distance relationships is generally a tough day...it makes you miss the person more since everywhere you look around, there would be constant reminders from red balloons with "i love you" printed across it, sidewalk vendors changing their trade from the usual toys and accessories to selling flowers and cards and all the couply stuff, tarpaulins everywhere greeting everyone a happy valentine's day (even poiliticians join in on the fray by putting up banners with their names bigger than the actual greeting), restaurants offering special menus and services for couples who would dine there, and couples walking hand in hand wherever they go. and you know it is valentines day also when all of the motels and hotels are fully booked! (advanced happy mother's and father's day to couples who failed to use protection!). It is a tough day but at least when you think of it, you are not single. LOL! :)

Love is such a powerful feeling that it encompasses everyone. from babies learning to walk to our elders in their wheel chairs and canes. from homeless people to people living in excess of everything. yesterday, i passed by the place where most of the flowers in manila are brought from the provinces and from other countries. i can't help but notice people from different walks of life buying flowers for their loved ones. from teenage boys holding single roses and covering them with newspapers since they are a bit shy that they are carrying flowers to obviously in love couples with the girl holding a massive bouquet in her arms. no matter how few or many the flowers are in the bouquet, their smile across their face is the same :)

and me and ying ying finally got to talk for a longer time yesterday! it was such a nice feeling that we finally got to talk for more than a few minutes in more than a week. there was a lot of catching up to do and we did just that. it was great to know that even though she was having a tough time in LA because she was new there and work and thesis was bearing down on her, she was doing great and learning a lot of things. this is a bit of a tough time for her so i just want to make sure that she knows i am there for her and support her all the way and to be more understanding about her. i love talking to ying ying because we can talk about everything. and i am very comfortable with her that i am able to tell everything that i have been most reluctant to tell even people closest to me before. and i am very glad that she is the same way to me too. openness of communication is very crucial since reading between the lines is too dangerous for long distance relationships. not being clear about what you are saying can be easily misunderstood and thus lead to arguments.

for now, we have to settle for catching up during weekends and talking for a few minutes during weekdays. it is something to adjust to but will definitely work for us. everything will be fine as long as you keep a positive mindset about what is happening. you can't do anything for the things you can't control. i will be thankful for every moment that we can update each other. for the other times that we can't, i know she is thinking of me and both of us wishing that we are together :) i miss her a lot and i will miss her more...