day 69

just came from a scientific conference for veterinarians in cebu city from feb 15-19 that's why i was not able to post a new blog. the conference was a great venue to meet old and new friends. it was particularly nice to see my batch mates doing good in their respective fields/jobs.

anyway, from all the excitement, lecture sessions, and night out with friends and colleagues, the thought of ying ying would just suddenly pop into my mind. i miss her the same amidst all those mind occupying activities. during lectures when the topic goes from interesting to boring, my mind slowly drifts into this day dreaming state where i would imagine the things we would do when we will finally be together. or that the next day i would see her and i would imagine what i would do once i would see her, or how would i surprise her by just showing up her door step in LA. during night outs, when i would lean my head back to drink my beer, in the middle of all the loudness, i would wish she was there with me and meet my friends and the people i am with. in the hotel room when i am ready to retire or when i wake up in the middle of the night, i wish i am feeling her warmth and hugging her instead of the pillow around my arms.

i think i have finally settled into a groove where i am really comfortable with our situation right now. one of my bad habits would be i tend to over think things. i would worry too much about something when to start with, it should have been nothing to waste a worry about. it made me a bit depressed and a little less sure about our relationship. but i guess that was phase about our relationship. right now, i am very happy with where we are in our relationship and how we are coping up :) we never failed to update each other everyday through skype, facebook, twitter, IDD calls and texts and everything in between.  and when we will end up together someday, i will owe some thanks to iphone for giving us more opportunities to communicate with each other. hehe. this piece of technology is amazing! :)

it's amazing how the person you love can change you for the better. you feel better about yourself and you will strive to be better for that person. you want to be more responsible, more successful, and just be a better person all around. i know it should have started from me alone but i guess, some people need triggers to let them realize they can do better than where they are right now.

and even if i am comfortable about our situation right now, i still miss her the same...the same intensity but i got better control of it now. everything's going right for us right now and i hope it will continue for the better...